Thank you for all the lovely comments you posted on my last entry.
Many of you wondered how it was that I could have written and posted something so personal.
This was actually a meme which I saw in a few very good blogs, written by beautiful men and women with great inner strength. I started this as a draft almost a year ago, but I never did have the courage nor strength to finish writing it, and to actually reveal such a private part of my life.
I Am The Girl was the most difficult entry I have ever written. It brought back a flood of memories, which a year and a half ago, would have broke me, but now, they are nothing but that. It doesn't mean that I am totally immune to the pain, but I have learned to let go.
It is true when they say you need closure after a really bad experience. I can finally move on with my life. I finally have closure. There is no longer anything to hold me back from pursuing the happiness I deserve.
It's very humbling admitting my mistakes. Yet, as difficult as it is, I see it as a small step of growth. Knowing that I'm fallible, that I'm accountable to my wrongdoings isn't easy. It never is.
I am not a beautiful person. Far from it. I am human. I have done things which I am not proud of, which will stay with me for the rest of my life. I can only embrace those mistakes, and try to be a better person.
It is wonderful to know that my life isn't over. In fact, it has only just begun.
And that, my friend, is what they call "closure" - Rachel, The One Where Ross Finds Out, FRIENDS