October 19, 2007

Thank You

Thank you

Thank you for all the lovely comments you posted on my last entry.

Many of you wondered how it was that I could have written and posted something so personal.

This was actually a meme which I saw in a few very good blogs, written by beautiful men and women with great inner strength. I started this as a draft almost a year ago, but I never did have the courage nor strength to finish writing it, and to actually reveal such a private part of my life.

Till now.

I Am The Girl was the most difficult entry I have ever written. It brought back a flood of memories, which a year and a half ago, would have broke me, but now, they are nothing but that. It doesn't mean that I am totally immune to the pain, but I have learned to let go.

It is true when they say you need closure after a really bad experience. I can finally move on with my life. I finally have closure. There is no longer anything to hold me back from pursuing the happiness I deserve.

It's very humbling admitting my mistakes. Yet, as difficult as it is, I see it as a small step of growth. Knowing that I'm fallible, that I'm accountable to my wrongdoings isn't easy. It never is.

I am not a beautiful person. Far from it. I am human. I have done things which I am not proud of, which will stay with me for the rest of my life. I can only embrace those mistakes, and try to be a better person.

It is wonderful to know that my life isn't over. In fact, it has only just begun.

And that, my friend, is what they call "closure" - Rachel, The One Where Ross Finds Out, FRIENDS


Kamigoroshi said...

Why thank you. I did write another one though. Sometimes we have to recognize that times change and we grow with those times.

Of course, at the end of it, admitting what you are not is actually easy. It's admitting who you really are and what you really have. Now that is what makes this meme special. :)

Timodee said...

My baby,
I'll continue to be your best friend and supportive 'lou kong'... remember that I was the guy who believed in love again because of you, my dearest.

Jemima said...

There's an error in paragraph 8 of this post, my dear friend.

I am not a beautiful person should be I was not a beautiful person.

You are a beautiful person now & for always.. especially your loving & caring heart.

Tim has written & revealed part of his marriage vow above.

HUGS to both of you, my beautiful friends.

zewt said...

i wonder if i will ever have the courage to do one...kudos to u.